Thanks Paul, would love to have made it to the meet this year, just such awful timing...But something to push forward too next year and hopefully get stronger.

To narrow it down even more, when we spoke to the head consultant of my case here, I took him to one side and ask him straight out what he thought. And basically he said, " Your walking death" I shouldn't be here. After hearing that, it really makes you thing....

For example, my son is 3 turning 4 soon. I have basically NO memory of him till I got out of the hospital. I don't remember his birth and so on.

My memory works ok for a period when I see photos or people sit and tell me things, then certain bits come back. I didn't remember any holidays I've had either. I still need to write most things down otherwise I won't remember, if I go shopping, I have to make sure family are there as I wouldn't be able to find my way back to where the car is parked because I usually forget that quickly!

It sure makes you think to get ALL your affairs in order.....